Monday, June 4, 2007

I'm back....I hope

We got the computer back tonight! Ten days without a working computer--omg I just about died! I didn't realize how much I use this thing. The first weekend it was worse, I was restless, nervous, didn't know what to do with myself. It got a little better but I'm glad to have it back. It's not 100% yet and is running incredibly slow and I get booted offline at random moments--once so far while writing this.

I do have to set the record straight though. My Bro said The Hubs' moment in porn land wasn't the whole problem. Apparently there were a lot of things going on in the background (and still are) but that was like the straw that broke the camel's back.

So let me fill you in. I feel like my head will explode with all the things I want to tell you guys : )We're getting a pool. Yep, swimming pool in the backyard. We talked about it last year, sort of just said yeah, sometime soon it would be cool to have a pool (above ground pool). Then Memorial Day weekend we went to a friend's cookout and she had one and the kids had an absolute blast. They got out once to eat quickly and then right back in. Within the next 3-4 weeks we'll have it installed. We're thinking of having a Fourth of July Pool Party!

Donut's bachelorette party went well. I had no idea what to expect and actually was a little nervous about the whole thing. I wanted to prove to myself (mostly) that I could go out and have fun and not have to get totally drunk to do so and I did. I did drink, but I was responsible. I do have to admit I was quite surprised and impressed by my friend Guinea Pig's pole dancing ability though : ) The club we went to had one of those Saturday Night Fever dance floors and then three smaller round platform dance floors with poles. (No, I did not get on the pole, I didn't have that much to drink and I didn't want to humiliate myself.) It was interesting at one point in the evening when a guy got up there to pole dance and security made him get down. Frankly I would have screamed sexual discrimination--why the hell shouldn't a guy be able to get up there? That was just sexist. The club played 70s and 80s music (they even played Jessie's Girl) so not only did I get to dance I sang along : ) In the back of my head though I was sort of laughing because I'm fairly certain few of the other girls in our group were barely even born in the 80s.

Work has been a total bitch. My former boss retired and her last day was last week. The day before she told me "they" (meaning the powers that be, especially the Queen of Evil) were not happy with me and while she didn't think I'd be fired the next day I needed to step up to the plate. Obviously I was stunned and shocked. I didn't cry in her presence though, which is a big step for me. I'm such a cry baby most of the time, especially at stuff like that. I came home, vented to The Hubs and generally felt better. In the past when work shit has gotten me down he has tried to step in and "fix it" rather than just listen. (I think it's a guy thing, a sweet thing, but not necessarily what I want at the moment.) This time he listened, let me vent and waited for me to ask his advice. He also brought me back to reality with the fact that this is just a job and if they did fire me we'd survive, we always have. He outlined our contingency plan, offered to have the Queen of Evil offed and gave me some good advice. Anyway, that was last week and I've since talked to my boss and have a game plan. My old boss meant well I'm sure, but she is rather abrasive at times. And, while I think the higher ups do have some issues (though most of it is more based on perceptions the Q of E has) I really think my old boss was just trying to have a Come to Jesus meeting with me and scare the shit out of me. All is semi-OK now I guess. Though more and more I'm really hating anything corporate related. People could accomplish so much more on a daily basis without corporate politics and red tape. Power to the little people!

The thought has crossed my mind to look for another job, but despite the bad things the benefits are better than alot of the publishing companies in the area. Maybe I just need to get out of publishing altogether. I'm certainly discovering I'm not that great as an editor as I (think) I am as a writer.

I'm sure there are other things I'm forgetting that I wanted to blog about but I'm just happy to be back : )

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