i have decided to be happy. the last couple of work weeks really took their toll on me and something inside me clicked. the hubs has always had this mantra, we work to live we don't live to work. he's always told me i am not defined by my job; that i'm more than what i am when i'm there. i have been worrying about losing my job and w/ that thinking that would be the end of me. what could i possibly do besides what i'm doing now (which is pretty much, in one way or another, the same thing i've been doing since i graduated college). maybe everything he's always told me when i get stressed out at work finally sunk in. maybe it's the fact that we've started going back to church. i am not highly religious. i have faith, but religion or at least organized religion eludes me. anyway, maybe that has something to do with it. or maybe it's because earlier this week i couldn't sleep and formed this game plan for something i could do when my job goes away. or maybe it's a combination of all of those.
i've just decided that i don't want to be like so many of the other people in my office who are walking around like deer caught in the headlights, scrambling to implement these knee-jerk, near sighted changes our new big boss has in mind and losing sight of what we're really supposed to be about. i've decided that even though i know i'll get pissed off and frustrated and have rough days, i can't give the queen of evil power over how i feel and let her wicked, viral negative energy bring me down. because she will get what's coming to her; i'm a firm believer in karma and what goes around comes around and she will get hers.
so, i hope to post more and be more up beat and get back to good.