today i made the mistake of peeking at my former employer's web site only to see something i'd been working on for years come to fruition. one of my responsibilities was interviewing retailers and writing cover stories about their businesses. as soon as i took the job there was one retailer in particular that everyone talked about, who was highly respected/liked in the industry and i thought would make a great cover. although i built a great relationship w/ said retailer, he was always adamant about not being on the cover. at our conference this spring (prior to being laid off) he FINALLY (after 3 yrs) agreed to be a cover story for a big issue this fall. i was thrilled. i suppose i thought once i left he wouldn't do it, since he's a very private person and said it was my perseverance and personality that won him over (along w/ prompting from some of our common industry friends).
now the story is done--not a cover story, but a story. it is written by the person who took over my other old job at a sister publication. so very surreal to see that. i couldn't bring myself to read the story.
when i first got laid off i followed the magazine on twitter and checked the web site almost hourly. i was obsessed and hurt and wanted to see what was going on in my absence. months ago i stopped checking in. it just didn't matter to me any more. no idea why i looked today, other than it's a big week (trade show-wise) for that industry and some of my friends on fb have been commenting about it. it's the first time in about 7 yrs that i've not been to this season of trade shows. granted, i do not miss all the travel i used to do. but, i do miss the friends i'd made and being in the loop.