can i just tell you that tuesday--the day my kids go back to school--could not come any sooner for me.
i love them both dearly and perhaps i'm the worlds shittiest mom for saying this but i am so not a good mom when i'm with them 24/7.
i'm really, really trying not to lose my mind and just start yelling non stop at them at the top of my lungs. everything they do is driving me up a fucking wall. no matter how many times i explain things to them they do not understand and keep asking me about it.
if i enter one more retail establishment w/ them and the girl tells me she "needs" xyz for school i just might lose my ever-loving mind.
if i have to explain ONE MORE time that the issue w/ cell phones is not the cost of the phone itself (cos you can pretty much get those for free) it is the cost of the monthly 2-year bill that is giving us pause--again, i will lose my mind.
i do believe pms is not helping the situation right now. i am irritable for no real reason. but their constant....constantness is making me crazy. how do other parents do it? i read blogs, people enjoy their kids. are they just not saying sometimes they'd rather feed them to the wolves or drop them off on the highway or ship them off to a boarding school? am i the only evil person out there?
when i am thinking clearly i KNOW we are lucky and i KNOW my kids are good kids. they are both smart and funny and creative. they can be (occasionally) thoughtful and helpful. they can be (rarely) grateful. and i know if they are getting on my nerves after being together all summer i've surely gotten on their nerves. i KNOW this.
it annoyed the hell out of me when we were at the girl's open house and one of her friend's mom asked what she'd done this summer and she said nothing. really? hmm, didn't go to wv for a week, didn't go camping, didn't go to the beach, didn't go to movies, etc.
oh, i will be fine. i know this will pass and i love them both--but crap they can get on my last nerve.