actually---i think they might be the same thing.
yesterday i sent a resume to a tobacco company and just happened to make an offhanded remark about it on facelibre. something like ok, i if i get this job does it mean i'm going straight to hell?
the boy read it. (yes, both of my kids are on facelibre.) he turned from the computer and said, mom, i don't mean that i don't want you to get a job, but i don't want you to work at a tobacco company. this morning when i got up he asked me if i'd heard from the tobacco company.
i have come to realize that i cannot afford to be morally picky (to a degree, i mean i'm not going to start pole dancing. but then that's not really as much of a moral issue as it is an i-don't-have-the-body-nor-skills-for-it issue) in this quest for employment. initially i thought aha, here is my chance to work for a company i actually like. to reach for the best. to wear my rose colored glasses and find the perfect company but i have peeked over the rim of those glasses and realize that perfect company doesn't exist. for me the perfect company would be: local; making/promoting a product/service i admire or care about; having strong altruistic values; paying incredibly well (w/ bennies) and being flexible. yeah, i know, pie in the sky.
in this job search i am almost always reminded of dear lloyd dobler when frasier's dad asks him what he wants to do with his life: "I don't want to sell anything, buy anything, or process anything as a career. I don't want to sell anything bought or processed, or buy anything sold or processed, or process anything sold, bought, or processed, or repair anything sold, bought, or processed. You know, as a career, I don't want to do that. "
i have decided that companies really need my help writing job postings. looking on the government's web site there's a job for a resolutions & receivership clerk (i clicked on it only because the starting salary is like 20k more than what i made when working) the job says it requires 95-100% travel, including nights and weekends. really? who the fuck wants that job? another listing is for a motor vehicle operator. uh, isn't that a DRIVER? dude, you can make at least 30k being a fisherman for the government! did you know this? on board boats off hawaii, virginia, alaska, etc. 30k just to fish? i mean you could do a whole other job on top of that. of course i'm envisioning someone sitting in a deck chair w/ a pole off the side of ship and the job is probably something more like deadliest catch or something LOL. oh, another job? able seaman. do i even need to say anything about this one?? LOL and practical nurse---as opposed to an impractical nurse?