my brain is working on overdrive today so you're getting two posts : ) lucky you's guys : )
the kids' last day of school is tomorrow. starting monday i will enter an unknown territory. i will be home with both of my children all day. every day.
i have been home w/ them off and on over the years for a few days at a time. but not since giving birth has that been for any length of real time. i have always worked.
i don't know how this will go. i am worried that i'm not a good enough mother to do this. it is one thing to be a parent when you work full time, but it's a whole other ballgame when you are home full time. at least i think it will be. and, i think it will be hard.
i know there are parents out there who'd give their left nut to be able to stay home w/ their kids. and, though this certainly is not the long-term game plan (cos all the coupon clipping in the world doesn't make it possible for me to officially stay home full time), a tiny part of me is looking forward to the challenge. even these last few weeks of having them home after school has brought about a bit of a change in me w/ them i think. i am not as tense and i do think that trickles down to them and how i interact w/ them. or maybe it's just me wishful thinking.
i WANT to find a job. i NEED to find a job. but, i also am curious about being w/ my kids full time. don't get me wrong--i have no illusions that this will be easy or always fun. i have no doubt that by this time next week i'll be writing posts like--omfg i'm going crazy or bitching about them fighting or something. i know this. my eyes are open and i expect this. but, i hope it's not too bad.
if any of you have suggestions, tips, advice on how to keep a 9 and 12 year old entertained for little or no money, i'm all ears. also--i will be feeding them meals other than dinner (which is never fun cos they are picky and bitch about everything). i need snack suggestions as well. i've already told them they aren't sitting around eating and watching tv all summer.