i had an interview this morning, 8:30 am. it went well i suppose. i may have an unfair, negative prejudice about this particular company just because of the things i've heard about it for years. their benefits suck. their pay scale sucks. etc. these are things i have heard, i do not know first hand because none of that was discussed today. the person i interviewed w/ was very nice, i think she was pleased w/ me, etc. it will be a few weeks before i get called back (to interview w/ another person whom i was supposed to meet w/ today also but she was tied up).
i would not hate working there i suppose. i guess my level of interest would depend on the salary/benefits.
however, i realized, driving home, that i am spoiled. the silver lining of being laid off that i don't talk about nearly enough (especially in the summer) is being w/ my kids. summer is hard--being a mom 24/7 and not having the resources to go and do as much as they/i'd like. but i love being here when they get home from school. i like being able to get the house work and errands done so they don't bog down our weekend. though i've been slack lately about the timing of dinner, since being laid off we have mostly eaten dinner earlier, before the boy heads out to karate class at 6pm.
going back to work, though a huge necessity, will change our dynamic again. if i got this particular job my commute would most likely be 45-60 minutes (depending on traffic). it took me 45 mins to get there this morning but w/out traffic it took me 30 mins to get home. my old commute was about half that most of the time.
part of the reason i wanted that garden job (aside from the fact that it would have been cool) was because it was in my town and my commute might have been 5 mins.
going back to work will rob us of family time. it will make our evenings rushed again, even more so since the boy is in karate every night. dinners will be late. there will be late homework and keeping up the house/errands will move back to evenings and weekends.
i know, i know. i bitch about not having a job and then bitch about the possibility of getting a job. oy vey. i know i have to work, but it's going to take some adjusting that's for sure. (to be clear i have not had a job offer yet so i know i am totally jumping the gun.)
however--it is friday. we are having our luau tomorrow and we ended up w/ a bigger crowd than i expected. which is another thing i could bitch about and am never happy either way. i always invite this big group of people (partly assuming from the get go that 1/2 won't come) and then the majority come and i'm so glad to see them all because i don't see people much any more, but then i have little time to actually spend a lot of time w/ any one person. yeah, i'm a spoiled brat. i have said several times that i'm going to pare down my invite list but then i start thinking of people to invite and people i haven't seen forever and the list grows. dammit.